It’s Sunday. Another weekend has passed. I am just doing a bit of cooking and making my meal plan for the week. Tara and I start Boot Camp tomorrow night at the AC, and then we start our running schedule of Tuesday and Friday evenings. I’m looking forward to it. I got my healthy groceries and I’m ready to start my journey to losing 40lbs on my own. I have my tools in place, so as long as I maintain my drive and focus we are doing good. I will do my best to journal it. My reason for doing this is simple, I simply cannot afford to put out money for Weight Watchers and the Gym. I need both. I have the tools that two years at Weight Watchers have given me, now I am going employ them and do the gym. I’m going to miss my friends there but hopefully they will keep in touch.

This week at work is likely to be busy the first few days. My boss was away and while he was most of his clients called me. It left me very little time to focus on my tasks, so this week will be filled with me playing catch up after his vacation. How ironic is that? Oh well, I am thankful I have a job to go to everyday, and it is one that even though it may have drama, I love.

I am thinking a bit about next year, and what I want to do with my vacation time. I really would like to go away, to somewhere I’ve never been. I’d also like to catch a Dave concert and/or a Bruins game. I’ll have to put some more thought into it as the summer progresses.

On to game topic, I have the plot kit for Requiem…It works well with what we are doing with the game’s restart after three years of “The long Silence” as Chris Wilson calls it.

I think the players will enjoy it. I think I am going to enjoy running it for them.

I’m debating closing down my twitter, I’m finding it interesting 10% of the time…it was cool at first when the whole world wasn’t on it, now it’s just a huge media outlet.

Alright, I am off to continue my Sunday. Where ever you are, I hope yours is sunny and warm.

Easter Sunday. First Easter in a long time the friends haven’t gotten together for a bunch or a BBQ. I realized that today. But next weekend will be busy with Tara’s Red and Black Bday Bash on Saturday night and Mike and Cole’s Baby Shower on Sunday. Summer is just around the corner and schedules start to get busy.

This time of year is always exceptionally difficult on me. A few years ago I had some personal issues that were very hard on me. During that time I also lost one of my close friends. So between the first of April and the end of May it is an uphill battle to keep my shiny disposition. That being said it has also been very hard for me to stay focused on my fitness and weight loss goals, because I want to eat based on emotions. *sigh* It’s hard. However on the positive note, I have one friend near by and one who is far away I have been able to talk to about most of these issues and really found that I have the inner strength to get through.

Really I need to focus on the fact that my experiences in life have made me stronger and primed me to better handle whatever else might come my way. In saying that I need to acknowledge that it isn’t always easy, but the experience I’ve had have shaped me into who I am now, but I should not let them govern how I continue to live my life. Hardships have been endured and survived. I’m still here.

That’s something.

by Marty Casey

Disintegrate the pearly gates, I need to see you
I’m coming through.
Decide my fate on a later date.
Nothing’s gonna stop me from saving you.
Bullet holes in my soul.
I’m here getting wasted
Bullet holes in my soul
Maybe we could make it. Well I don’t know.
I don’t know.
Why does he have the strength to devastate and murder the beauty he creates.
I’m gonna bring you back if it’s the last thing I ever do.
I’m gonna bring you back to me I swear to God, I swear to god.
I swear.
Bullet holes in my soul.
I’m here getting wasted… wasted… wasted.
Bullet holes in my soul.
Maybe we can make it, well I don’t know.
Now we’re taking over
I wanna to die for you.
Now we’re taking over
Now we’re taking over
Now we’re taking over.
I wanna die for you.

I took some photos at Caine and I have some friends who aren’t on FB to see them so I thought I’d post them here.

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This is the first time using the album feature in Live Writer so I hope it works properly. I thought I’d also take a chance to post old photos from Caines of the past. I only have access to the ones from Freddy. The others are on a disk some where.

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It is delightfully sunny here today. I didn’t get to enjoy it nearly as much as I would have liked. I went in to work this morning super early, got a bunch of stuff done, then headed home around 10am. I have a brutal head cold, so I opted to bring some work home with me, hydrate and sleep off some of this horrible cold.

I find myself very thoughtful since returning from Toronto. I think I got some closure in regards to some personal matters, which makes me feel a bit lighter. I also feel very good about things coming up in the future. So now I just have to make them happen!

I checked out Chris’s pics from the trip. They are located here. Feel free to check them out. I am still waiting for Hil to post hers. Wish I had taken more, but I was just having too much fun.

Tonight I plan on doing some source material reading. Going to brush up on my knowledge of the New World of Darkness. Some exciting things to come!

I’m thankful for all the good times that were had last weekend. I look forward to the many more to come.

“Coming Home” was so worth it.

So the weekend was a blast. It was awesome to see old friends, and make some new ones. I had spoke to Jody early last week and said going to Toronto felt like a homecoming of sorts. I couldn’t have been more right! So many things just sort of evolved from the weekend and conversations that it left me energized and excited for some future activities.

The train ride was long, and honestly if I have to travel further than a 8 hour drive, I’m flying. Period. I know it will be the weekend before my body forgives me for 20 hours on a train both ways.

The social aspect of things was awesome. We did get out to see the CN Tower and did go all the way up to the Skypod. We also took in the Hockey Hall of Fame. I took selected photos of my favorite jerseys and such. Poor Chris spent most of the day sick, but he was a trooper and held on as long as he could before admitting defeat and we got a cab back to the hotel. We had actually taken public transit downtown, which was fairly simple. I was not intimidated by it at all once we got going. On Saturday we spent the morning going for Dim Sum and exploring Chinatown. Chris had never eaten with chopsticks or experienced Dim Sum, so this was an experience for him, and how the Dim Sum was served was an experience for me. I was used to a checklist and a lazy susan in the middle of the table. Not carts circling your table constantly like sharks with tasty dumplings, noodles and the sort begging to be eaten! Anyhow, the Dim Sum was great, as was Kensington Market. I felt so town over so many pairs of cats eye glasses and antique rings I thought I just might die. In the end I didn’t buy any of them… I came home pretty much empty handed…

Well almost. I bought some bracelets in Chinatown from a vendor. I also came home with a wealth of knowledge on Port! I had never tried it in my life and an old friend of Chris’s, new friend of mine Bill let us sample his and I swear it was like drinking honey… it’s the only way I can describe it! So I thank Bill for the education on Port. It shall be added to our list of options.

So now I am home…I feel a longing to create, a longing to build and foster our Camarilla Domain anew. It will take a great deal of hard work from those who have the same vision, but I think with our experiences as a guide, and the needs and wants of members we will be off to a good start.

I had more to write here tonight, but I am exhausted, I have 61 work emails I would like to put a dent in before tomorrow morning and I have episodes of Bones and Dollhouse waiting for me.

So on that note, to new beginnings, old friends and new friends.

Toronto was just as I said to Jody, coming home.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

I’m up… I’ve been up since 6:30. Can’t break the wake up habits during the work week, even if I tried. My bag is all but packed. Just have to add my toiletries once I have my shower. I am in a heavy debate with myself on taking my black boots. They are a staple in my wardrobe… but they take up so much damn room in my suitcase! What would you do? We’ll see as I know I won’t make the final call until just before I close the damn bag!

Cookies were made the other night, they are packed, as are Phil’s comics that were left here ages ago. I am very excited to see everyone. I think that at least a quarter of the train ride will be spent in sheer excitement to get there (when we first leave, when we transfer trains and when we arrive in Toronto)

I am thankful that everything planned for Thursday night is low key so that if a restful sleep isn’t had on the train, then it won’t be unbearable.

So I’m hoping my cat doesn’t disown me while I’m gone, and I hope that work survives without me. I think I left them amply prepared for anything that might arise.

So the next post you see from me will likely be from TO, on Hil’s laptop. Safe travels to all those heading to Toronto this weekend, see you there!

X’s and O’s from my travelling pants,

~Squigzella

Good morning!

I have been meaning to post for a bit now, but I have had absolutely no time. I lie, I meant to do it last night but I got sidetracked on packing.

Just about to eat my  breakfast and head to work. Working two days then I am off. I really can’t wait to go to Toronto. It will be nice to see everyone let alone anything else.

I spent this past Saturday at IR. It was fun to catch up with some people I haven’t seen in awhile, watch the guys play some Warhammer. Jay Miller asked me to join in on Star Wars but I just wasn’t in the mood to be more than a spectator sadly.

Saturday night Chris and I went out to Hil’s and assisted with a pre-trip ritual… it involved wax and torture! LOL But we had some laughs and that’s what counts.

I work Monday and Tuesday this week. I anticipate putting in some extra hours either tonight or tomorrow night to make sure everything is in order. I don’t mind that so much. Steve was super awesome to give me the time off!

We leave on Wednesday and get to Toronto at 3:15 on Thursday. Should be a fun filled weekend. I’ll be sure to post pics. I am taking the camera, so I promise some fun shots for sure. I don’t know if we should expect to sleep on the train or just to stay up all night catching up with Jared and telling stories. Either way, the last time we took this trip, I drove for 16 hours, so it will be nice to just sit, and chill.

Brekkie is ready so I gotta run. I’ll try to update again before I go.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

This week went by so fast. Work is SO busy that there just isn’t enough time in my days. I spent a few days there super early this week and stayed after 5 a few times. Year end for the Government is making my life busy…But that’s ok. Means we are making money right?

We go away in 17 days. I can’t believe how fast it is creeping up. I need to find a less formal outfit for one of the events. I am going to do some shopping this week and hopefully I’ll find something.

I was so exhausted I didn’t go to WW yesterday. I should have. But I didn’t. I did get on the scale and I am down just under a pound from last week. Ill be back next Sat of course. I was just so burned out I couldn’t pry myself out of bed to go.

On the topic of WW, I am starting to feel a difference in my clothes. God I love that feeling. I suspect by the end of March I’ll need to get new jeans, if not before. Mine are coming off without being undone now, but they are still comfy and don’t look *too* big.

I am eager to get things organized with Tara for her wedding in October, which reminds me to send her a To Do list we made. We are going out on Tuesday night, I’m looking forward to it. I didn’t realize how much we had been hanging out until she is now back to work, D&D was cancelled and I haven’t seen her. I miss her! So I’m looking forward to hanging out on Tuesday. Hopefully the weather won’t cancel D&D on us again this week.

Dave is coming… I want to go… Well to Montreal and Boston. I wanna go… I wanna go…

On a personal note, I got some stuff off my chest last night… and I feel better. I am always surprised by the compassion and understanding of some people in my life. I am truly blessed.

off to get groceries I go.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

It’s Wednesday…

I slept through my clock, but managed to wake before I HAD to be out of bed. So that’s not so bad. Going shopping tonight. Looking forward to that.

Hectic work week.

Keep wanting to send an email to someone to get some stuff off my chest. I haven’t yet. Maybe it’s best. Either way… I don’t understand why someone would avoid me if they think they did nothing wrong… life is so strange. Actually it’s people that make it strange.

28 sleeps.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella