I’m going to do what I can to get there tomorrow morning, from what every media outlet is saying I should be alright to get out first thing, it’s later in the day that is going to be wicked.

So this week I diligently used WW E-tools that come with the monthly membership. It’s been a very useful tool. I’m eager to see the results. One of the major reasons is because I used 1 flex point and had a hard time eating all my points everyday. This was a struggle because I really wasn’t hungry so I didn’t want to force them. Once I see how this translates on the scale it will let me know if I have to add something to my meals to get those extra few points in. Be it margarine or cheese or more protein.

I did a fair bit of walking this week. Really need to pick up a pedometer or a pedometer app for my Blackberry. See how much movement I am getting in.

Enough of the self analysis. It’s a long weekend! Earl is on the way, hopefully it isn’t too intense. Chris W’s Bday dinner is on Sunday evening. Asian themed… I’m eager to make pot stickers! I’ll report tomorrow with measurements and weigh in results.

Wish me luck.

Set up my E-tools for WW. I totally love the Recipe Builder and the online tracker… I’m going to try to use it for the week and see how it goes. I should be able to access it from work as well so I can look stuff up. That will nice.

I’m eager to see how this first week goes. I’ve promised myself I won’t get on the scale until I weigh in on Saturday, I will also measure every two weeks.

Thanks for coming along on this journey with me.

I was very surprised to see that since I stopped going in the late spring early summer, I have only gained 3 pounds back. In my mind… it felt like all of the weight I had ever lost came back.

I decided to make use of this blog space by chronicling my journey, and being loyal to posting. This is a commitment I’m making to myself. Of course comments, feedback and all that fun stuff will obviously make it much more fun for me to use this forum, so please…let it be interactive.

Without further adieu:

Weigh in: 225.6lbs

Chest: 46.5 inches

Waist: 44 inches

Hips: 51 inches

Now that these numbers are out there… there is no hiding from them.

Let’s see how this journey goes.

I went to the Dr yesterday. She gave me some meds for my stomach problems, however last night of course don’t I have them and tada pills don’t work. So it’s proving that I need to eat NO Cheese, NO onions and NO fried foods. Other than the onions, I could likely manage. Oh well, I’ll try to make it through with the bland food for awhile and hope to cleanse out my gallbladder because in essence I’m certain that’s the issue. Either way, I don’t like it and I just hope to heck it doesn’t mean me… in a hospital for any time at all. I hate hospitals, even when they are for my own good.

Turned out to be a quiet afternoon, which is alright with me. I’ve been tired because I’ve been up a few nights with these stomach issues. So I curled up with a book and then had a nap!

I’m on vacation tomorrow, going to babysit Robert in the morning not too sure about the remainder of the day. Either way I’m going to enjoy it and do something I want to do. Maybe even a bit of shopping.

I want to go see Eclipse again… hoping I can coax someone into it.

Hope everyone had a great Canada Day!

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

Outside of that I did find my scrapbooking supplies as well which reminds me once again I need to print off new photos and get back to that hobby, which I have always enjoyed but never really had a lot of money to sink into it. I think I am going to take some money out of my next pay and get some photos done and go from there.

Back to the event planner notion. I have some ideas, and a few things I want to be really good at before I venture into the world of special occasion planning. But it’s in my bonnet and growing. Kind of exciting to be creative about something again. Feels like it’s been awhile.

It has also been awhile since I’ve been back at Weight Watchers… I’m bad. I want to lose the weight but my head just isn’t there, I want it to be there. I think I might just suck it up, go back and vow to not quit. I have a goal in mind, I’ve been successful before, I’m not sure why all of the sudden I have self doubt. Just need to get back on the horse. We’ll see if I’m there on Saturday….

Until then, stay frosty.

PS  How many sleeps boys?

We go away in 17 days. I can’t believe how fast it is creeping up. I need to find a less formal outfit for one of the events. I am going to do some shopping this week and hopefully I’ll find something.

I was so exhausted I didn’t go to WW yesterday. I should have. But I didn’t. I did get on the scale and I am down just under a pound from last week. Ill be back next Sat of course. I was just so burned out I couldn’t pry myself out of bed to go.

On the topic of WW, I am starting to feel a difference in my clothes. God I love that feeling. I suspect by the end of March I’ll need to get new jeans, if not before. Mine are coming off without being undone now, but they are still comfy and don’t look *too* big.

I am eager to get things organized with Tara for her wedding in October, which reminds me to send her a To Do list we made. We are going out on Tuesday night, I’m looking forward to it. I didn’t realize how much we had been hanging out until she is now back to work, D&D was cancelled and I haven’t seen her. I miss her! So I’m looking forward to hanging out on Tuesday. Hopefully the weather won’t cancel D&D on us again this week.

Dave is coming… I want to go… Well to Montreal and Boston. I wanna go… I wanna go…

On a personal note, I got some stuff off my chest last night… and I feel better. I am always surprised by the compassion and understanding of some people in my life. I am truly blessed.

off to get groceries I go.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

So yeah, Saturday. Shovelling. Then Mom brought me in town. Tara and I started cooking. We made some good eats too. I think my favs were the Jalapenos I made and the dip Tara made.

They got me a cake, with Edward Cullen on it. LOL Chris edited the photo so it said “Hope your birthday doesn’t suck, Love Edward”. Thought it was pretty funny. I also got a bear from Tara with a Tshirt that says “Real Vampires don’t sparkle” *giggles* You would think I’m obsessed or something. Barry got me some comics from my folder at the store and Chris got me Dr Horrible on DVD! I didn’t expect prezzies so it was a nice treat. Thank you!

So…we drank our faces off…many many shots. I wasn’t feeling any pain, and honestly I think everyone there was pretty ripped. It was awesome. Speaking of ripped, Tara and I owe Carter a wife beater…. Sorry… We were just mesmerized by your hotness!

Many stories I could tell, but you know what? I just can’t do them justice. Just thanks to everyone for coming out and making this a very awesome birthday! But man does my body ever feel 31 today…

I also got prezzies from family today. Mom and Dad got me an Griffin iTrip for my car. So now I can use my iPod in the car. Nan got me a car charger for my cell phone, which was much needed.  All these gadgets!

So now I am gonna go have my Bday supper, and enjoy Lasagna, Garlic Bread and a piece of chocolate Birthday cake.

So much has changed in the past few years. I’m eager to see where this year takes me.

X’s and O’s

~The Diva of the FLN, Squigzella

I don’t know where to begin here. I want a few things in my life that are just outside my grasp. Suddenly I feel closer to them and then just as quickly something comes along to remind me I’m not as close to it as I thought.

An example of this… I REALLY want to be back at WW. But Christmas is coming, I have to put snow tires on my car and that leaves me with no start up cash to rejoin. Really frustrates me because I’m trying on my own. I did actually lose 2.2 pounds this week. FINALLY! However I know I need that support network and yet it is outside my grasp.

Maybe I just hate how my life right now is all about how much money I don’t have. Mind you I keep telling myself in a few months it won’t be like that. Tires will be on the car, Christmas will be over. I’ll be saving for Toronto, and a couch set and before you know it I’ll have some savings and be moving back into the city. I know it’s not that far off. Just feels that way right now. I just need to get through it. I know that. It’s just difficult and frustrating.

Outside of these issues, work is going well. We have a bit of stress right now because we have to change a few processes to fine tune things, however I think it is within our grasp. Just need to buckle down and I think if everyone does, and we all share the same vision we’ll do alright.

As for actual Christmas…I am working on prezzies today. I’m excited about them, I can only hope they turn out the way I want. It will be an inexpensive yet thoughtful way to spread the holiday cheer. I am buying for a few people I didn’t last year, but there are also a few I am not buying for so I think it balances out.

So I have to get to work on that today as I have to mail out a friends box of stuff soon. So I need to make sure everything is ready to go in it! before this coming Friday.

So today will be spent working on Christmas Cards and Crafts. Not such a bad idea.

I have my lists made of who I need to buy for. I have a good idea for everyone, so it shouldn’t be too difficult this year. That being said I have some personal expenses I need to take care of first which could cause me some issues, but I am going to try to figure it out. Licensing of car, renewal of insurance… all a pain in my butt, because I also need WINTER TIRES! Which I still don’t have. *cries*

That is stressing me out just a little bit.

Went to see The Spencers at the Imperial on Thursday. Hil scored us some tickets from work. It was a traditional magic show. It was kewl. I don’t know if I would have paid for tickets, but it was entertaining.

Going to see Chicago this upcoming weekend. Can’t wait! Think it is going to be pretty awesome. Friday night is TWILIGHT! 5 Sleeps!

Spent the day shopping with Gerry yesterday. He got new shoes. I got new undies which were much needed. Started back on completely counting points today. Going to see how it goes.

Sunday Points eaten and planned:

Bacon (4)

Eggs (4)

WW Toast (3)

3 Cookies (3)

Ham (3)

Beans(4)

2 Plums (2)

1/2 Pom (1)

Total: 24 Balance : 6

Send me your supportive vibes. I need’ em. Even though I haven’t gained, I finally don’t feel like I’ve lost anything at all because I have stayed the same size too long… LOL so it’s time to get down a jean size. It’s overdue!

~squigzella

I am back at the gym, and I went back to Weight Watchers on Saturday. I couldn’t go to the meeting because I got asked to help my Nan out with something and she had already made an appointment so it left me with little options, however I will be there for the meeting next Saturday. It was good to run into Judy…I can’t explain Judy, but seeing her always inspires me. So it was just good to see her smiling face when I got there Saturday morning.

Felt good to be back and know I only gained 4 pounds since July when I was last there. I had really gained more, but I over the past few weeks I started minding what I ate and shed the extra I did gain before going back. So at least I know I can do it right? Well I know I can do it. I made it this far. With going back to WW, I am also back at the gym. My first day back I run into an ex… too funny. Anyhow it seems we are both going to the same gym around the same time each day. At least I’ll have someone I can stop and gab with on occasion. Always makes the gym time pass faster.

Work is going well. Very busy and there just doesn’t seem to be enough time in my days but I haven’t drowned in my own paperwork yet.

Tuesday night we are off to Moncton to watch the Bruins play the Islanders in an exhibition game as part of Chris’s Bday festivities. I’m very excited. Hopefully we will see Lucic, Chara and maybe even Timmy Thomas… a girl can dream alright!

Last night about 20 of us went to Vito’s for Steve’s birthday, then we went back to his and Tara’s place for a few drinks. I wasn’t much in a drinking mood, so I just sat back and enjoyed the conversation. I wasn’t in a social mood most of my day and being around people was alright but sadly I wasn’t in the frame of mind to be my fun partying self. Nothing is particularly wrong, but yesterday I was very angry with someone for not minding their own business… and I let it get to me. But as things would have it, I found out that the very thing they interfered in my life for they are doing themselves… so the lesson… People in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones. That being said, I’m the better person and am going to mind my business. Either way, it made me a bit grr last night so I thought mixing rum with that would be a not so good idea. I do hope that Steve had a great birthday, and the cake Hil made was fantastic.

With that being said, I am off to play some World of Warcraft, it’s been two weeks!

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella