The long version of the stupid trucker. He had cargo of ours to deliver to the Refinery for tomorrow morning at 9am. After being advised several times to NOT deliver until that time, he went over there at 4pm today and delivered it… without our consent, without an appointment and without our Installer…
I’m still pretty ticked. It will be interesting to see if there is a fallout. This was just one of many bad experiences we’ve had with them as of late.

On a much happier note, I have reconnected with an old friend of mine from my younger years. We are going out for coffee this week and some Christmas shopping over the next few weeks. I’m really glad we ran into each other a few weeks back. It’s nice to have old friends back in your life sometimes. Especially if they are ones you missed.
Back to the point counting for two weeks now. I’m down 3 pounds.
I’m happy about that.
That’s all from my side of the world.
X’s and O’s
~Squigzella

I don’t know where to begin here. I want a few things in my life that are just outside my grasp. Suddenly I feel closer to them and then just as quickly something comes along to remind me I’m not as close to it as I thought.

An example of this… I REALLY want to be back at WW. But Christmas is coming, I have to put snow tires on my car and that leaves me with no start up cash to rejoin. Really frustrates me because I’m trying on my own. I did actually lose 2.2 pounds this week. FINALLY! However I know I need that support network and yet it is outside my grasp.

Maybe I just hate how my life right now is all about how much money I don’t have. Mind you I keep telling myself in a few months it won’t be like that. Tires will be on the car, Christmas will be over. I’ll be saving for Toronto, and a couch set and before you know it I’ll have some savings and be moving back into the city. I know it’s not that far off. Just feels that way right now. I just need to get through it. I know that. It’s just difficult and frustrating.

Outside of these issues, work is going well. We have a bit of stress right now because we have to change a few processes to fine tune things, however I think it is within our grasp. Just need to buckle down and I think if everyone does, and we all share the same vision we’ll do alright.

As for actual Christmas…I am working on prezzies today. I’m excited about them, I can only hope they turn out the way I want. It will be an inexpensive yet thoughtful way to spread the holiday cheer. I am buying for a few people I didn’t last year, but there are also a few I am not buying for so I think it balances out.

So I have to get to work on that today as I have to mail out a friends box of stuff soon. So I need to make sure everything is ready to go in it! before this coming Friday.

Friday night we went to see the much anticipated Twilight. The boys can make fun of it all they want but Tara and I LOVED it. In fact I sort of want to go see it again so perhaps I can pay more attention and not just be so rapt up in how many lines were taken from the book.

We also went to see Chicago last night, performed by SJTC. An excellent show. Very impressed with their use of the stage and props. Simplistic yet effective. I ran into an old friend and it was nice to catch up. I look forward to getting out for coffee with her in the near future!

After the show we went to Steve and Tara’s for Juls Bday party. Many drinks we consumed. Many laughs were had.

Today I helped move Juls stuff to Dale’s place. The day was longer than I anticipated but I survived. I find myself very tired tonight so I am sure to be off to bed soon.

I wanted to talk more about Twilight but I’ll compile something later and post it. I feel like curling up with some reading and tunes before sleeping.

I’ll do my best to update again later this week.  I need to make use of this space as once again this year it has been given to me by my dearest friend Jim Twitchaby!

Many thanks my friend.

~Squigzella

So today will be spent working on Christmas Cards and Crafts. Not such a bad idea.

I have my lists made of who I need to buy for. I have a good idea for everyone, so it shouldn’t be too difficult this year. That being said I have some personal expenses I need to take care of first which could cause me some issues, but I am going to try to figure it out. Licensing of car, renewal of insurance… all a pain in my butt, because I also need WINTER TIRES! Which I still don’t have. *cries*

That is stressing me out just a little bit.

Went to see The Spencers at the Imperial on Thursday. Hil scored us some tickets from work. It was a traditional magic show. It was kewl. I don’t know if I would have paid for tickets, but it was entertaining.

Going to see Chicago this upcoming weekend. Can’t wait! Think it is going to be pretty awesome. Friday night is TWILIGHT! 5 Sleeps!

Spent the day shopping with Gerry yesterday. He got new shoes. I got new undies which were much needed. Started back on completely counting points today. Going to see how it goes.

Sunday Points eaten and planned:

Bacon (4)

Eggs (4)

WW Toast (3)

3 Cookies (3)

Ham (3)

Beans(4)

2 Plums (2)

1/2 Pom (1)

Total: 24 Balance : 6

Send me your supportive vibes. I need’ em. Even though I haven’t gained, I finally don’t feel like I’ve lost anything at all because I have stayed the same size too long… LOL so it’s time to get down a jean size. It’s overdue!

~squigzella

I find myself lost in this very strange place lately. I’ve sort have been locked in my own prison of thoughts for awhile now trying to sort them out. Make it all make sense. For awhile I thought I needed some type of anti-depressant to help me figure things out. Then in a moment of weakness I cried, for the first time in a very long time and I admitted out loud in front of another human being what was eating me pretty much alive. What is strange is that build up of emotion, once released made a huge difference. It is still there, but is no longer governing everything else. Maybe to tell someone what I felt, and not have them rip into me for it is what I needed. I am not quite sure. All I know is I do not regret any decisions I have made, I regret that I did not take more time to see all the paths before me.

So all my ducks are lined in a row. Everything sorted out. Everything becoming clear. I’m slowly figuring out where I belong and where I do not. More and more lately as my career continues to be successful, other aspects of my life are slowly coming into order and into place. I have been my own worst enemy when it comes to finding a partner for this journey called life. I have had some excellent time for reflection… Change is coming…and it’s scary but also exciting.

Wow… that was all pretty deep. Let’s switch gears.

Work is going well. I’m busy all of the time. I will do my best not to say ALWAYS, because apparently that is a word along with NEVER that is used to frequently to make something more dramatic… and I am trying to stray from my Drama Queen ways. I’d like to pass the mantle on to someone else thanks..

Living at home has it’s ups and downs. I am looking forward to spending the Holiday with my family. It is something that was very special to us before Grampy passed 4 years ago. This year I vowed to myself to make it special again. Fill these halls with smiles, laughter and good times. I think I have my work cut out for me, however I am up to task.

I have maintained my weight. I have had other financial obligations that need straightened away before I can focus on the gym or weight watchers again. I’m hoping to be ready to commit back to it BEFORE the new years resolution rush.

14 Sleeps until we go see Twilight. I am SOOOO excited. I wish I had the first book here this weekend so I could re-read it. I may try to find an online copy just to get me all revved up for it again. Edward Cullen, I can’t wait to meet you… and your big brow on the big screen!

I have rambled on longer than I thought…but in the closing of this note for some reason some far away friends are in my thoughts today. Phil, Jody and Indi… all of you crossed my thoughts today. I hope life is well, and I cannot wait to see you all in a few short months!

X’s and O’s from the desk of a diva,

~Squigzella

There is a nice line up of movies this fall I want to see. I can’t wait! Also a few things going on between now and Christmas which should make the time fly by. I really don’t want it to fly by that much, but I’m wagering it will. My weeks lately are here and gone… especially when I seem to be in Moncton almost one day each week. It really makes the weeks seem shorter.

Going to see Reveen on Friday night with Hil, Chris and Barry. Aimee’s wedding is on Saturday. The entire family is going to be there. It will be nice to see everyone. I’d like to have a new outfit, but I have no idea what I am going to wear just yet. I’ll figure something out.

Started running at the gym. Doing pretty good I think for just starting. Can’t wait til I can run for an extended time, maybe then I can start running with Greg. It would be nice to have a running buddy.

That’s all from my little part of the world for now.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

Work is going well. Keeping me very busy but my boss was right… when he hired me he told me that there would be days I’d leave frustrated and stressed, but loving it the whole time. He was absolutely right. There are days I just get grr, but I love what I’m doing, I enjoy the people I have to deal with. It’s good.

Been doing great with the gym. I started weights on my arms and legs. Arms so that I’ll be toned as I lose weight on them, and my legs so my hamstrings will be toned for longer runs. I started running this week, based on a simple starting strategy: Walk one minute, run one minute. I have found I can run for 7 out of 15 minutes of walking. So not nearly as terrible as I thought. I’m quite pleased.

I have been very tired lately, but I think it’s the change in season coming more than anything because typically the gym energizes me, and in a few short weeks I’ll feel that energy again as we get ready for Halloween, then Christmas!

I’ve been trying to keep up with US Campaigning. I will admit I find it so much more sensationalized than Canadian Politics. Perhaps that’s what makes us so “Canadian”. Our PM isn’t a celebrity. I don’t personally care for Harper, but I see him as much more of a person than a political celebrity. Obama on the other hand… I close my eyes and feel as though I’m listening to the Rock exercising his mic skills on Monday Night Raw… getting the audience riled up about his opponent in the next pay per view, John McCain!

But there is something inspirational about Obama’s mic skills. He has a warm, charismatic voice. McCain is old…and old school, with a flighty Palin as his backup. The chances of this woman becoming President because McCain will not live throughout his term is HIGHLY probably, and very frightening. If the Americans wanted a woman in office, they would have nominated Mrs Bill Clinton…

I find myself laughing now… as I really have nothing to say on the impending Canadian Federal Election… It’s about tax dollars and cowboy hats. Maybe Harper needs to have an affair, or Dion needs to get caught smoking pot before I’ll be interested… or maybe it’s just that the media has desensitized us to fact and legislation and made politics about, sex, drugs and scandal?

Well that went on longer than I thought it would. Just random thoughts from a random mind today.

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

I am back at the gym, and I went back to Weight Watchers on Saturday. I couldn’t go to the meeting because I got asked to help my Nan out with something and she had already made an appointment so it left me with little options, however I will be there for the meeting next Saturday. It was good to run into Judy…I can’t explain Judy, but seeing her always inspires me. So it was just good to see her smiling face when I got there Saturday morning.

Felt good to be back and know I only gained 4 pounds since July when I was last there. I had really gained more, but I over the past few weeks I started minding what I ate and shed the extra I did gain before going back. So at least I know I can do it right? Well I know I can do it. I made it this far. With going back to WW, I am also back at the gym. My first day back I run into an ex… too funny. Anyhow it seems we are both going to the same gym around the same time each day. At least I’ll have someone I can stop and gab with on occasion. Always makes the gym time pass faster.

Work is going well. Very busy and there just doesn’t seem to be enough time in my days but I haven’t drowned in my own paperwork yet.

Tuesday night we are off to Moncton to watch the Bruins play the Islanders in an exhibition game as part of Chris’s Bday festivities. I’m very excited. Hopefully we will see Lucic, Chara and maybe even Timmy Thomas… a girl can dream alright!

Last night about 20 of us went to Vito’s for Steve’s birthday, then we went back to his and Tara’s place for a few drinks. I wasn’t much in a drinking mood, so I just sat back and enjoyed the conversation. I wasn’t in a social mood most of my day and being around people was alright but sadly I wasn’t in the frame of mind to be my fun partying self. Nothing is particularly wrong, but yesterday I was very angry with someone for not minding their own business… and I let it get to me. But as things would have it, I found out that the very thing they interfered in my life for they are doing themselves… so the lesson… People in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones. That being said, I’m the better person and am going to mind my business. Either way, it made me a bit grr last night so I thought mixing rum with that would be a not so good idea. I do hope that Steve had a great birthday, and the cake Hil made was fantastic.

With that being said, I am off to play some World of Warcraft, it’s been two weeks!

X’s and O’s

~Squigzella

These past two weeks have flown by, each day I find myself wondering where the time went because I am very busy, but also enjoying what I am doing at the same time.

I will be officially back at Weight Watchers on Saturday, Sept 20th. I get paid before then, but I like the Saturday routine. Also will be renewing my gym membership likely on Monday. Very happy about this…. things are going alright it would seem. Need to take care of some over due financial issues that come with being unemployed for a bit, however I should have those mostly cleared up by mid October…. I can’t believe it will be a year since we went to Florida… I can’t wait to go back again. I would like to plan for next October when I have some vacation. I wonder who I can sucker into going with me..

I am rambling.

By the way, all of the Twilight books were amazing. I am counting sleeps until the movie comes out: 62 sleeps!

TEAM EDWARD

x’s and o’s

~Squigzella

I’ve had a few messages sent to me about my facebook status. I’m fine. Nothing I won’t live through. Just some hard choices made. I realized that I only have to answer to myself, and in doing that I know I’ll have peace of mind in my decisions and in my future. This job enables me to gain the stability I need in my life again. It will help me get back on my feet as well as help build a life..

I will be back at Weight Watchers around Sept 21st or something like that… and back to the gym at the end of September. Looking forward to both. Going to start walking the nature park after work next week. Filling up my calendar and keeping active. Keeps the brain off the troubles.

Labour Day weekend was nice. Got to see some out of town friends. I took a ton of pics of Sylas and Robert on Thursday…. still waiting for those so I can post them for Vicki and Tara to see. Hopefully Chris will get those to me ASAP.

~Squigzella